The HWK Weekend from HELL!!!
So, this weekend is the Student Senate's much anticipated Catholic Stewards Day! I'm excited!!!…but besides that…this is pretty the weekend from HELL!!! As I have SO much hwk and SO much general work to do it's INSANE!…so if pretty much don't talk to me unless it's CSD related…here is my weekend to-do list, in case ur curious, or in case you think I am exaggerating… June 2nd-4th1.doc
Just noticing how personal these blogs are getting, certainly not my intent when I initially began blogging…book idea: "the blog diaries"! cute, eh?! I smell bestseller…of course not my blog…something more provocative…but great title tho!…anywho….just a note to readers: less self-absorbed blogs to come once time frees up…right now this is my outlet for the my overwhelming amounts of emotions and a venue to vent from stress…blog diaries…
My life as it is now: hwk…senate work…commencments…bittersweet rollar coaster emotions…ottawa fantasies…
The week started off slow, with insane amounts of hwk and boredom…although I was invited to hangout with friends I didn't have the energy…is that bad? I don't have the energy to hangout with friends here…i just don't!…I'd rather be with people from Forum or friends that I'll be going to Ottawa with…I mean it's like prom…it was nice but AGM and FGM and Forum were 100x's better! …hense the boredom…talked with a friend, who also knows about my bi friend and the other two guys…yeah…i've decided that i don't care…It doesn't matter or bother me anymore…and if I fall for a guy who's bi, so be it!…yeah I've grown a lot this past week or so…a lot! (a lot I haven't shared…) been talking to the guy more and more lately…so amazing to have such a great friend!
Tuesday was insanity! I went to school where I worked an insane amount on hwk, ST emailing in preparation for a Senate presentation to the board…I left school during 4th…when I rushed home I did mass amount of work on prep for my presentation…then I went to the bank…got a visa card…rush home made a Senate powerpoint in an hour…dressed in 5minutes…and went to the board office…there I met with my ST alt and designate and the senate supervisor then the my senators came and we worked on our presenation…the presentation rocked!!! the trustees LOVED it!:D it's was awesome!…after the presentation all the senators got certificates for their work and we took pics…then the board meeting got underway…one of the, if not the, best ever! it was awesome! hahahaha….great debate and drama! I accidently got myself in the middle of one too:S hahaha… two trustees were agruing and the remarks got personal and they started speaking out of line and the chair flipped out on them! meanwhile I had my hand up and was next on the speakers list…so the chair goes "i am going to Amy next. She asked politely! amy!" 
…funny thing: my comments were one the side of the main instigator of the argument…good times! anyways…the board meeting rocked…asked the superintendent a hard question…gave a kickass report at the end…and was almost gonna cry at the thought of leaving all of it!!! …the ST designate was great! he was like "wow! I can do this for 5 more hours!!"….we'd been at the board office since 4:30 in the afternoon and left at 10:30:P hahaha…i love it soooo much! One more left! *tears* …*water works* …went home to hwk and sleeping on the couch!:P
On Wednesday I went on a law field trip to a murder trial…it was quite boring! there was voir dire, a trial within a trial, on some distorted evidence…yes, sounds good…but it wasn't…again, I found myself tired of school friends…perferring some alone time…yay starbucks…then I went hime to hwk…and a band practise then band exec. meeting…concert is tomorrow…i was excited!…then more hwk to the max.! plus! putting together a powerpoint for the concert…pics from this year's trip to Chicago…funny thing is calling up ppl at 11pm and they're all asleep:P …so used to forum and ST friends up till 2am..bedtime for me: 5am…oh well…i put it together and our director loved it!:D…
My final concert came on thursday! not exactly sad yet…but i will soon…my last time playing or singing in public *tear*….thursday was madness…7:30am choir…preparing and setting up for the concert…then sound check…setting up powerpoint:S….man! can u say slave labour?!…it was sweltering hot at school and moving everything…yuck!…While setting up it was brought to my attention that Catholic Stewards Day may see some very low attendance…I'm starting to freakout!!!!…then show time…we performed great! starting with the graduates (which includes me) performing O'Canada…all our sets rocked!…then the grad. tribute…touching! extremely sweet and touching!!…starting to feel a little sad….then afterwards we all went to hangout at Dirty Jeresy's which was a blast! despite the crazy young sports drunks! like what are u doing here at 11pm on a thursday?! get a life!:P…anywho…it was fun!…got home at 12am…been out since 7:30…taking friday off!!!…
I signed myself out of classes for the first time ever on Friday:D…slept in and caught up on sleep…then worked on ST work…research ST policies and election processes…and then went to the board office to meet with the communications director:)…we're now starting a Student Senate website!!:D so pumped!…then the day was spent doing hwk, ST work: uniform survey tallying, CSD prep, etc. …
Music…how i love it! and how i love it more when i know the singer/composer! Dave sent me his newest song…he said he thinks of me when it comes to that song because of my speech at the end of forum…the song is amazing! **gosh! i miss forum**…FFD in full swing again!…Dave is such an amazing singer too…that boy will be famous someday! he's so talented!…FFD!!!…then! randomly, one of fav ST friends, Ian, sent me his summative music assignment, Provacation for Unaccompanied Quartet…shocked at his talent! had no idea! and man! is he creative! that is one funky song!…anywho…lovin the music!…FFD and STFD (student trustee friends deprival:P)….
Visited some friends tonight that i haven't seen in a while…we had a great time hanging out…on the way over all i was thinking was- god i hope we can still have fun without my jaded ego getting in the way:P and we did:D…me and kyle were talking today…millennium sucks!:P hahaha…he got a provincial and i have a local…and well…there are amazing ppl who got zero…and there are ppl who don't deserve more than a local who got a national!…kinda bitter…i feel like i earned and deserve more…man! i gotta stop thinking in dollar signs! starting to sound like a conservative!:P…dying for summer! put together a reading list today while watching You've Got Mail for the 100th time…great hwk distraction…anywho, I'll post the list soon…and that's how the rest of the weekend has been…hwk and Senate work and Cardinal Voice work…
yeah…sounds boring in text…but i feel a little burnt out and stressed …(at least 60 emails written this week…lord knows how many recieved!)….i think things will be better once CSD is over…not so prepared…kinda scared :S…omg! i hope we can pull this off! here's hoping!
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Here are some song lyrics I've been finding so revelent lately…or that i've simply enjoyed…
>>Oh brother I can’t, I can't get through/ I've been trying hard to reach you 'cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you….In the future where will I be?
>>And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart
>> Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking…. Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
>>Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death…They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
>>Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
>>Cause in my head there’s a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
where they’re far more suited than here
>>You're faking a smile with the coffee to go…So where is the passion when you need it the most
>>Such a lonely day/ Shouldn't exist/ It's a day that I'll never miss
>>Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out
>>I don't want what you want
I don't feel what you feel
See I'm stuck in a city
But I belong in a field
>>Lonesome for no one when
The room was empty and
War as we knew it was obsolete
Nothing could beat denial
>>How I miss your ranting
Do you miss my all time lows
>>She only drinks coffee at midnight
When the moment is not right
Her timing is quite, unusual
You see her confidence is tragic, but her
Intuition magic
>>Making my way on the town
And I'm seeing familiar places, faces
In my pile of coffee grounds
>>And if I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl,
Close to me
>>2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
>>That's all I got to say,
Can't think of a better way,
And that's all I've got to say,
I love you, is that okay?
PROM '06
Well prom has come and gone….it was certainly an enjoyable evening…one which i will certainly always remember…not the most exciting or thrilling night of my life thus far but enjoyable none-the-less…
Pre-Prom: well I was in a pretty cheery mood preping for prom…was all set except for make-up by the time of my hair appointment…it was at 3:30pm…the lady who did it was older in age and quite the experienced perfectionist…much of the time it seemed as tho she was intently sewing my hair…it looked great when she was done…which was at 5:30!!!…prom starts at 6pm!!!…so then i had to go buy earings too! ran into Claire's and bought the first pair i saw! they were cute and expensive! and convenient…got home at 5:55 and laid on the makeup!:P …drove to prom b/c of a few reasons 1) don't want to waste money on means of transport 2) can't drive other ppl cuz my parents are afraid of my killing ppl 3) can't be driven my friends cuz they may likely kill me….according to my parents anyways…
The Big Event: got there at 6:40…took pics with friends…got quite pumped and thrilled seeing how great everyone looked and how gorgous the hall was!… we all sat down to dinner…so great to see the enthusiasm in all my fellow clasmates….many of whom i hadn't seen in ages!!! and to see everyone under such great conditions, all happy and excited was awesome! i felt a really connection with all who were there…clothingwise, everyone looked amazing! and i got a good number of compliments too;)…:P…dinner was nice…the usual hall food…after dinner they gave out awards…"most likely to…"…i won most likely to become PM…which was a big shocker, because dispute my widely known and obvious obsession and passion for politics, it is was unexpected that my classmates would think of me when voting…i was also nominated for most likely to be on the cover of Time magazine, which as natalie pointed out, could very well be could mean such a person would become a facist dictator!:P…after awards…which in some cases yeilded quite interesting results…the dancing began! and boy were ppl ecstatic to hit the dance floor! and they all did! it was such a blast…altho it usually takes me a song or two to get comfortable dancing infront of ppl…but boy! when i get comfortable…:Pjk!…i made a serious effort to take pics with everyone and to dance with or chat with everyone…so wonderful how sweet and fun everyone was that night! It was so great to see everyone in our class bonding and having such a great time!…by the end of the night…as we watched the teachers dance …i started thinking about how this will be the last time i'll get to dance and get dressed up and do stuff like this with my friends and classmates…and that was kind of sad….not too sad…but to a degree it was …
Not much more to say or comment on…all-in-all it was a good night…a semi formal for seniors…i may have enjoyed it more had i not been so disconnected from my classmates this past year…or had prom been closer to grad…but none-the-less it was pretty sweet!
pics to be found on my msn space soon
Preface: Until the completion of the school year, my blogs will be based solely on my life. After which, once I am able to actually think about what’s going on outside of myself and my life, I will be able to write more engaging blogs, as for now you will have to settle for my self-indulgent bi-monthly reports.
Because of the overwhelming degree of recent occurences in my life, this blog will be organized josh-style, i.e. brokendown day by day. Enoy!
Monday May 15th: aww monday! talk about random!…first I spent the morning scrambling trying to mail out stuff, fax things, write a million emails and catch up on hwk…then i attended an awards luncheon for the Rotary Clubs of this area…i won an award for my volunteer work within the community and my school…then my dad, who had taken the day off to come to the luncheon, took me to the bank where I opened my first savings account, as I have recently accumulated a few hundred dollars from stuff and wasn’t in the mood to spend…this is my first bank account…exciting!…then I spent the night/afternoon doing mass hwk and student senate prep work…that evening I watched a very moving and shocking season finale to grey’s anatomy…after which I got the largest shock of my life! finding out that my best friend, who I was seriously crashing on for some time, was bi! …and that so are two other guy friends of mine! (man! hun if you’re reading this just msg me if you want me to erease that part…but I need to say these things aloud to someone!)… we’re so close and so much alike and i have never connected with anyone else like this before! It was a total shocker…still getting over it and trying to understand…see the thing is there’s this whole side of him I knew nothing about! and that breaks my heart! i don’t know…all i know is that he’s such an amazing person and we’re going to be close for a long time to come and knowing this now has only brought us closer together…
tuesday: on this particular day things were generally slower…choir practise in the am… During my 4th period spare i went shoe shopping with my mom for prom shoes…i also incidently ended up buying two fall sweaters for ottawa:) which was great shopping therapy! never knew the meaning of that term until tuesday…And in the afternoon i had an online Catholic Stewards Day planning committee meeting and made my first attempts at scheduling my courses with Erica and Kyle…PLUS! I when I got home i got an email from the Millennium scholarship foundation! I won a local millennium excellence scholarship:D $4,000…not bad!…sad thing about millennium is the number of exceptional more-than deserving ppl being overlooked…breaks my heart!…i was shocked to get anything! which is not to say that i don’t deserve it but i didn’t get a phone interview like those who won national and provincial and assumed i’d get nothing…so needless to say i was thrilled…tuesday was a great day to cheerup on:)
Wednesday: band in the morning…band in the afternoon…and stephen lewis in the evening!!!!!!! yes! I saw, met and took pics with the stephan lewis:D:D:D…he was amazing! He was in town for the first annual excellence in leadership dinner, which he said was the first gathering of it’s kind that he has ever addressed as it brought together all sorts of local leaders from corporate to student…his speech was about leadership from the greassroots to the celebrity level…an of course, in classic stephen lewis fashion is was eloquently spoken using the most obscure words in the english language! thank goodness i’d read Race Against Time before hand and was prepared for this! by the way…i highly recommend the book! It was one of my favorite reads…his insider prespective and poetic, heartwarming and at times comically sarcastic analyisis of the world’s reaction to the aids crisis is extremely engaging!…anywho…wow! still can’t believe I met him! wow!:D…went to do some quick prom shopping after…makeup…nails…etc…….and i emailed the guy friend i referred to from monday night and asked him some very candid questions…i have been thinking about him, and will continue to do so all week…
Thursday: band in the am again…are you starting to see this musical trend? hahaha…spring concert at school next thursday:D….anywho…then my sickly self went to the doctor’s for a b-12 shot as i recently tested as being severly anemic which explains my serious and constant migrains and fatigue hahaha…well at least it’s not cuz of lack of sleep:P…then Senate time!!!…i met with the board’s communications director and planned for the senate presentation to the board this coming tuesday…i’m excited:D…and i finally and ecstaically got a dvd from Faith Development Day!…then I had the Student Senate meeting! which is always a good time in my book!…altho i found this time around the meeting was extremely one-sided which makes me sad to think that ppl have lost enthusiasm over senate…but it was fairly productive and i enjoy everyone’s company…plus! I got to see the lovely former STs for my board so that was great!…after the meeting me and my incoming ST, luke, watched the FDD dvd…it is sooo great! I love it! wOw! hahaha…went home and watched it again:D…that night i talked to erica on the phone for well over an hour which is always a good time in my book:)…and then hwk!…oh! and …the guy responded and i was honestly shocked further by the response…first by his past relationshp history…then by his amazing outlook on life and love and then by how he feels about our friendship…so lucky to have him in my life…
Friday: PROM!…seperate prom blog to follow…
Saturday: shopping in the states…bought a gorgous grad or awards banquet, yet to be determined, dress:)….and then hung out with the family at home…picked out and registered to my course at uottawa…french…essay writing workshop…understanding poli sci….study of contemporary society and intro to micro econ…sooo excited! …chatted and caught up with ppl…did some senate work…good day
Sunday: boring…hwk…internet not really working…dad bought a new desktop…it’s gorgous! went to a 3hr band practise…blogging…hwk…chatted with friends…
Things to Come:
yes! quite the rollar coaster of a week in terms of both emotions and occurrences…it involved a lot of extreme degrees of feeling and bonding with a lot of ppl and doing a lot of out-of-ordinary stuff…then again considering everything that’s gone on this past year, it’s been pretty much the same, but as graduation draws closer i realise more and more how i’m going to miss it…by “it” i mean my term as ST this past year and as a senior and all the experiences and friends it brought with it…man! nothing like a week like that to make you feel alive! all i can say is boy do i love life!
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So, it's 1:30am and I'm trying to do some work but it's so hard to stay focused! So, i asked some friends who are also online to give me some motivation. Here's what I got:
Yeah…I think I'm going to bed now…
C'est Moi! thanks Heather! I saw that and was like "whoa! mirror!"…good luck with your conference!!! I'm sure it'll rock!
So, I have been too busy to blog lately and yet SO much has happened; ironically there's been no better time to do so. Isn't funny how many people blog when they have nothing better to do? Imagine how great this blog would be if I posted when all the action is going on!
So here are the highlights! C'est ma vie!
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